Fill in the blank Friday!

Today I'm participating in Fill in the blank friday over at the little things we do! Go link up with her!

1.  The love of my life is    my Savior, Jesus Christ!

2.   Falling in love is    amazing, but confusing for some people like me! Sometimes its so hard to decipher feelings but when you fall hard you will know.

3.  Marriage is    really exciting to think about, but also really nerveracking. I know it will be hard work.

4. The longest relationship I've ever had was   my current one, 6 years.

5. The key to a good relationship is  self sacrifice, understanding & laughter.

6. I feel loved when    someone surprises me or does something creative for me.

7.  My favorite quote about love is   "it is impossible to love and be wise" & "love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction".

Vampire Diaries

So for a few months now I haven't had cable, I just have Netflix. So when I want to watch sometime I kinda just pick a show and watch all the seasons they have of it. WELLLLL.. I got HOOKED on The Vampire Diaries! I watched the seasons they had there then went online and watched them and now have been keeping up with it every week! LOVE LOVE that show! I've always been a weirdo and loved the paranormal type stuff. There's a crazy love story, action, TONS of drama and duhhh, 2 very attractive guys. 

Who do I want Elana to be with? I have no idea! Stephan is a sweetheart, well until this season and they are super cute together! However, he doesn't appeal as much with this bad boy-ness about him. Damon IS the typical bad boy. But it works for him! He really cares for Elana too and brings out the fun in her! 

If I HADDDD to pick, I'd probably pick Damon honestly! I just think they are too cute together and I just really fell for him. The great thing is though, it doesn't matter because they are together in real life! 

Do yall watch this show? If so, who do YOU think should be the main squeeze for Elana?!

Picks of the week- Anthro style!

Anthropologie is my ALL TIME favorite store, hands down. Too bad the majority of things in there cost an arm and a leg, but I can still dream and save! Here are a few things I've had my eyes on lately..

So what do yall think? Anyone wanna make a donation to the anthro fund? Just joking!

Can you believe it is February already?  I know I can't! Everything is going by so fast. February is going to be a very busy month for me as well! Let me do a little out loud thinking and list what will be going on in my life:

#1. My little brother's last semester of high school is getting on a roll! A lot of his once in a lifetime senior activities start this month that I will need to attend. My little brother is almost all grown up! Pretty crazy, don't know if I'm ready for that! 

#2. Valentine's day of course! I am a sucker for it but this year Ryan and I will not be exchanging gifts. Money has been an issue for us this year so we can do without gifts! So if anyone has any suggestions for any gift or anything that doesn't involve money, I'll gladly consider them! I know yall are creative! 

#3. I move home this month! I just started gathering boxes to start packing, so I may be a little behind already! I literally don't have a free weekend to move everything in one trip so it will be crazy! I know my family is very excited though.

#4. I start my new job as a vet technician back home too! I'm excited to have more responsibility as a tech! 

#5. Ryan's 24th birthday is this month! I have no plans for it yet but need some! Once again, money-smart ideas would be greatly appreciated! 

Do yall have a busy month? Any special plans for V-day? Let me know!

SHE'S BACK!

Can you believe it!? I'm actually back!

6 months.. that is a very long time to leave yall hanging! I'm so sorry guys, I truely am! I have an explanation for you though! Remember my last couple posts about my mom? Thats my explanation! Once that happened things got crazy and I just didn't have the motivation to come back to blogging until now. I guess before jumping back on the train I should give yall an update on my life!

Well things with my mom are so much better now! She did have a double bypass surgery which was very scary! The morning after it she went into cardiac arrest and had to have CPR performed on her for 32 minutes, scariest moment of my life. But she came back to us, she did always told me she was strong! However the CPR caused internal bleeding and the next day she had to go into surgery again to fix that. She doesn't remember any of that obviously, she only remembers going into surgery the first time then waking up 4 days later. Those 4 days were so hard on us but more so on her. After all of that, my focus has changed dramatically, as it should. Family has always been a huge priority in my life but now it is truely of the MOST importance! 

I'm moving back to my hometown TO my family in a month! I am not currently in school right now, but I have a plan on starting a Vet Technology school during the summer (which I'm super excited about)! Moving back home is good but sad too! I will miss all of my friends here and my amazing sorority! 

Mostly though I think I will miss my job! I still work at the vet clinic I had started earlier and love it! It is what made me completely change my mind about what I wanted to do with school. It's been such a blessing and has really given me something to be passionate about during these past few hard months. 

 

Doesn't it look amazing? Lucky for me I have already secured a job back home for when I move! It's at a vet as well as a vet technician! I am very excited for that too! Another exciting thing about moving home will be this..

For the first time in at least 4 years of our relationship, Ryan and I will be living in the same town! It will be so different and so nice!

I am doing my best to catch up on yalls blogs and get back in the swing of things here! I'm glad to be back yall and even more glad to reporting nothing but good news!

Things are well!

So I was able to go home on Thursday until yesterday. It was so good to finally be able to see my mom in person after all of that news! She is back home now, doing well, supposed to be on bed rest for a couple weeks. They haven't scheduled the surgery yet but I will definitely go down again when they know.

On a lighter note, I've been reading A LOT lately. I mean a crazy amount. I haven't had cable in about a month so the only thing to occupy my time with is books! On a side note, I haven't had internet this week due to it just sucks. I've read more books in a month's time than I thought I would read this whole summer! Now my book taste varies EXTREMELY. I love good ole chick books, Christian fiction books, mystery books, horror, classic, etc. Honestly, two of my favorite books of all time are Dracula and How to Kill a Mockingbird. Quite different, right? But hey they are both classics. ANYWAYS, I just finished the original  The Phantom of the Opera the other night. Obviously, I had to follow that up with actually WATCHING the movie. Duh. I absolutely LOVE the movie and can sing every word to the songs. But you know who I JUST recognized last night? Gerard Butler! I really hope some of you just realized this too because then I will feel better about myself. But YES! Gerard Butler is the Phantom! He is really singing and everything!

WOAH, right!? I was completely impressed by this. He has been in so many different kinds of movies! "P.S. I love you", "300", "How to Train your Dragon", "Law Abiding Citizen", "The Ugly Truth", etc. Awesome.

Listen to him talk about it and then just PLEASE listen to him sing below. It's crazy once you actually realize who you are listening too!

I promise.. I am alive..

My dear readers, once again I have failed to fill you in when I become absent like this. It has been awhile hasn't it? Well, honestly it still may be a couple days. I'm just not in the blogging mood lately and this is why:

That is my mom. Okay, I'm just going to jump into this. Saturday night, she woke up at 2 in the morning not being able to breathe. Thank heavens, my step dad was there (because my brother was not and usually my step dad is away at work in Oregon) and was able to rush her to the emergency room. Apparently they said she literally had made it just in time. She has been in the hospital ever since that night. For the first few days they had her on oxygen machines and were running all sorts of tests on her giving us no answers. She started throwing up constantly and spitting up blood, very scary things. Finally, last night the doctors were able to give us some kind of answer. It turns out my mom had 2 heart attacks. Apparently one was 6 months ago, that somehow we did not catch. Then Saturday night was the second. Also, she has a defective heart valve. What this means is that her heart is pumping blood into her lungs instead of wherever it is supposed to be going. Honestly, there are a lot of different things wrong with her heart that are all so technical I don't understand them. I've been receiving all this information over the phone so it is hard to keep up. Anyways, like the heart attack news wasn't shocking enough. This morning they went into her heart to check it out more and ended up putting a stint into it. They also have decided she needs to have a double bypass surgery within a couple weeks, once she is feeling a little better. That news just came to us today. I was at work at the time.

I'm honestly still shocked and haven't quite taken everything in yet. I've been trying to not dwell too much on it. It is also really really hard when I'm not there with her and the rest of my family, seeing this things in real life. You have no idea how awful I felt this entire week not being able to be there with her. AWFUL. HORRIBLE DAUGHTER. I'm just being honest. Because we literally just came back from vacation, I could not take off work mainly because I can not pay my bills if I don't have SOME money. I wanted to say to myself "Oh forget it, you can manage Megan. Just go!". But then I know I can't get help from my parents with money because now we are going to have a huge hospital bill. I knew I had to stay. That being said, I worked almost 12 hours today to make up for the time I will miss on Friday because I AM going back then. And  I will miss work the day she has her surgery. No questions.

You know what also kind of stopped me from going? A little fear inside of my head that something bad may happen the moment I leave. Let me explain on this. Last year, both of my grandfathers died. I was away at college during those times too. When I got the call that they were in the hospital not doing well (they were both quick deaths), I immediately got in my car to try and make it (3 1/2 hours). Both times I failed. The second time I had made it back, had just walked in the house to drop off my cats, when my dad called me and told me not to come to the hospital, that he had just passed away. Both times, my families were in the hospital with them at some point, able to say goodbye. I was hours away rushing to try. Then when I got this phone call about my mom, I tried not to freak and rush there because I honestly thought, "Megan, don't. You will jinx this. It always happens.". Sad, yes, but true and honest.

This is a really deep and kinda sad post and I apologize for that. Like I said, this is why I haven't really been in the blogging mood. I promise I'm not falling off it, I will return. I would be so appreciative if yall could keep my family in your prayers, if you think of it. Anything will help.

I'm trying to be as positive as I can. Right now, I think I'm the only one half way positive though it sounds like. I know it is scary but as crazy as it seems, this is in God's plan. I do know that. And I've never in my life met a women stronger than my mom. Ever.